Hari
OM
Monday is AUM-day; in search of meditation.
Meditation & Life, with Sw. Chinmayananda
(Gurudev).
We are now exploring the writings of Gurudev on our focus subject of
Meditation. The book is a thorough treatment of the subject and extends to over
170 pages of closely printed text. No attempt is intended, here, to present the
text in its entirety. However, important paragraphs and quotes will
be given, within a summary of each section. You
are encouraged to use the links on sidebar to obtain a copy for yourselves from
CM publications. Please remember that each of the posts under this title is part of a
thought flow and it is important to go back and read the previous post in order
to refresh and review the context.
Ch.26; Keeping a Spiritual Diary
It has been mentioned before that the keeping of a journal specific
to saadhana and study can only benefit the practitioner early in their journey
and explorations in Vedanta and Meditation. In this chapter, Gurudev says
exactly this. He points out that there are often complaints from students that
progress is not being made, that obstructions are being found in meditational
practice. Often, the student will point to externals things as being the cause
of the delay…"it must be my destiny… there is less time… it is not
quiet…" All these things can be present and the most profound meditation
may still occur. The block is within! Somewhere, the subtle body has latched
onto the grosser and decided to become distracted. It takes a feat of strength
to bring all the bodies into alignment and back on track - nothing the external
can help you with!!!
"In order to protect the growing
spiritual wealth in you and not suffer the sorrow of setbacks...these twenty
'sentry' questions, posed at the end of each day, may help. Keep track of the
questions and your responses in the form of a diary, and keep it strictly and continuously for at minimum, three months… but not for more than
six months, for even the diary-keeping can become habituated and mundane.
Later, if you hit blocks and delays, again take up the diary, for a week or
two, to reset. It is the experience of many masters and thousands of seekers
that this diary-keeping is the sovereign remedy for [assessing one's
progress]."
The list of questions is designed to suit all temperaments; it is
suggested that you select fifteen out of these twenty to assist you. Make up
columns in your book, with the questions at the head and the dates to the left.
Report to yourself diligently each evening and at the end of each month, look
back over your 'chart'. Reading back over it, you can spot where you are
lifting well, or where the struggle is pulling you down. This is useful not
just for progress, but also to uncover vaasanas and develop targeted
improvement programs for yourself. Gurudev based these on the chart he would have been asked to do when he began his own studies with Swami Sivananada. The question list follows now - with a few
small comments as to Gurudev's recommendations or expectations (in
parenthesis), where appropriate. [Note - this
is an activity of saadhana and one which is heartily recommended; it gives a
sense of 'doing' something in an otherwise static modality and for the new
seeker, struggling with letting go of sense attractions, or the established practitioner hitting a 'plateau', it is invaluable.]
1: how many hours did I sleep in the
last 24? (for the quiet-living spiritual seeker, six hours is generally
considered healthy and sufficient.)
2: when did I get up from bed?
(serious meditation practitioners and sadhaks ought to consider any time
between 4:30 and 6am in order to keep good spiritual attendance… you will find
after a 'training' period with alarm clock, that the body naturally falls into
this pattern.)
3: how long did I practice
concentration? (little and often to begin is advised.)
4: what spiritual books am I currently reading?
5: for how long was I in company of
the good and learned? (satsang… it does not necessarily mean attending
prayer meetings or study groups; it applies to all our interactions and after
some time in spiritual study, we will find that we naturally gather a circle of
friends with whom we can share philosophical discussion and less idle chatter.)
6: for how long did I engage myself
in disinterested service? (karma yoga… giving help without expectation
of return.)
7: how many malas of japa did I
perform?
8: how many Upanishad mantras did I
read? (read only a little each day but be sure to digest them
thoroughly!)
9: how many mantras did I write?
(likhita japa - a great way to fix the mind - if the hand is doing it can be
focused upon - then the point of the pen - then the flow of the ink…)
10: how many hours did I observe
silence? (mouna is an essential part of stilling the mind and the core
of our being.)
11: did I fast today? (this
will only apply to those who have set up vrat as part of their saadhana; that
is to say, once a fortnight, or every Monday, or some such.)
12: did I give away to charity today?
13: how many lies did I tell and with
what self-punishment? (a lie is something uttered against your
conscience and with a view of self-preservation. A lot of the time we think we
are not lying - but if we look carefully, we may have created a moment of
hypocrisy, self-delusion and contradiction in order to save face or some such -
it is a lie! Do not allow yourself to console your conscience by saying that it
caused no harm. In all events, lying disturbs your mental poise - if you catch
yourself guilty of this, give punishment, such as an extra day of fasting or a
full day of silence, for example.)
14: how many times was I angry and
for how long was it felt? (we often don't recognise our own anger - now
is the time to hold the mirror up!)
15: how many hours did I spend in
useless company? (this doesn't just have to mean people… it can be the
distraction of television, shopping, other such frivolity.)
16: how many times did I fail in
brahmachaarya? (self-control in all areas; eating, talking, sex and all
such sensual pleasures.)
17: what virtues am I developing
consciously? (each month, take a virtue or noble quality that you would
like to cultivate and work on it! Tick when it went well, cross when it
didn't.)
18: what evil quality am I working on
eradicating? (kaama, krodha, lobha etc… there is a question here about
anger, but you could equally make a question for each of these to assess your
progress in rooting them out of your system; for this reason Q18 here is given;
choose which to focus on for the month.)
19: how many times did I fail today
in controlling the habit in focus?
20: when did I go to bed? (if
rising early is the desirable action of the true seeker, the same might be said
for repose - note your pattern.)
You will note that most questions only require single word or numerical
responses; this is to make the process relatively quick - though it will take a
few moments of introspection and review of the days events to 'count' them; it
also limits the possibility of erring, even here, and cuts down the tendency to
justify our actions. Additionally, at the review point, it will be very easy to
see where the 'waves' are.