Hari
Om
'Freedays' are the 'gather our thoughts' days;
Q&As; a general review of the week so far…
Questions,
questions, questions. Life takes turns; sometimes we float along with nothing
too much stirring our pot; other times we find we are filled with doubts,
insecurities, worries… any amount of disturbance which is likely to cause us to
question.
In
the early stages of undertaking spiritual/philosophical study, it is usually
prompted by one of two things; either we have strong intellectual curiosity… or a strong need for answers to our daily
conundrum. The spectrum of reasons will almost always fall under one or other
of these categories. There are rare exceptions of people who have some level of
sainthood or other significant spiritual strength in their praarabdha (destiny)
and thus spiritual pursuit is their intrinsic nature. Majority times, we have
to have something external to trigger the internal.
In
the first category, it may be that we are simply interested in cultural
influences outside of that with which we are familiar. It could be that we are
not satisfied with intellectual approaches within our own spirito-philosophical
backgrounds and are seeking to fill the gaps from another 'well'. It may be
that, to strengthen our own base, we seek the opposite in order to justify or
deny certain things…. The intellectual reasons for researching scriptural and
doctrinal literature are plentiful. It is a fair bet, however, that many
undertaking such are seeking ways to understand the human condition as it
pertains to society, so there is a macrocosmic perspective to the enquiry.
In
the second category, the vision is more microcosmic and the forays into
philosophy/religious study are to prop up the individual; it is an emotional
need. There can be any number of reasons for this, but the point is they are
still seeking to understand the human condition as it pertains only to
themselves and their immediate connections.
Whichever
prompt is behind the questions that arise, the important thing is to make sure
the questions get asked and that there are open hearts and minds prepared to
hear the answers. It is a very common thing in all philosophical schools to
find that the questioners phrase their enquiry such that a certain answer is
expected or desired… "isn't it such that…", or "if I do this or
that, do you agree… " and other such structures are used in an attempt to
lead the teacher to the answer which is wanted. This is generally done at a
subconscious level. There are those who actively seek to manipulate Q&A,
but overall, most folk really are just curious but unaware of their underlying
needs and motives. Intelligent beings, we are adept at couching things at what
we believe to be intellectual levels (logic), when in fact we are stuck only in
mind (heart). Most of us, at one point or another will have had the experience
of discussing something aloud or asked a question and, only as it took voice,
hearing something we hadn't actively thought… "..ooh, where did that come
from?!" Certainly this is the sort of thing which happens in the heat of
arguments - underlying tensions or other such feelings will surface.
This
is particularly the case where the mind has become full of daily transaction
and not been given a chance to process and dump the useless, the unnecessary
and the harmful. Dreams will often take on a more turbulent quality during such
times. Frequently dreams just happen and we don't recall them, we just know
that we had them. When there is intense disturbance, though, dreams will be
remembered; forget all the symbolism and mysticism surrounding 'interpreting'
dreams. They are simply our vaasanas and worries expressing themselves in the
only way they can in order to prevent a major waking-state emergency. However,
eventually, if things are truly building up, even dream state cannot help - and
deep sleep is totally out of the question at such times - it begins to affect
the waking state. We start to feel tired, drained, lethargic and more, on the
physical level. On the mental level we express stress, patience grows thin, we
become confused and lose sight of what we actually want… so many things to go
wrong! Then, when asked to try and explain why we are in such a state, there is
so much detritus in our thinking that we cannot explain ourselves.
Stage Four.
Regardless
of where you think you are coming from in terms of your current questioning
style, the number of questions, how many are 'weeds' and so on, the little
exercise you have been asked to undertake of late will, it is hoped, be
starting to act like a mirror for you.
Having
been asked to make a more judged sorting in stage three, you will ideally now
have rather less questions and much more focused ones. If you started out with
categories, in going through the stage three process, any further, lurking
tendency to be asking the same question in different formats will have come to
attention.
This
whole exercise is to assist the intellect in regaining control of chaotic
thinking. In the event that very few questions came out at first, going through
stages two and three is likely to have brought more questions to light and at
the same time eliminate them if 'samey' or prove to be stronger questions than
the initial one or two. This type of exercise is to kick-start the intellect
and get a level objectivity, even on subjective matter. Becoming a
self-observer in a truly objective way is an enormous step forward for any
seeker. We have to keep ourselves honest.
"What
has all this to do with Vedanta?" may well be a question which has arisen
now! Only when we are free of the detritus in our mind and the intellect has
regained its rightful place in the driver's seat can we start reaching for the
Higher. Philosophy, religion, is of no use whatsoever if it doesn't address the
fundamental aspects of human living first. The error would be in thinking that
this is its sole purpose. Vedanta is a very practical discipline which knows
the different levels of aspirants and encourages, from the very beginning, that
questions and doubts be aired. No question is too basic, no doubt too personal.
If one person has a thought on a matter, it can be guaranteed there are a
hundred others with the same thoughts.
Go
back over your refreshed and condensed questions. Across all of them, attempt
to narrow it down to a maximum of three pressing questions. It would be
wonderful if they were of high philosophical enquiry… but the odds are not high
on that. They will almost certainly be about application and practicality of
the philosophy as it pertains to our life. Don't pick the questions you think
'are the right sorts of questions', but the ones you genuinely want to discuss.
Perhaps there will be only one burning question at this time, perhaps there are
several demanding equal attention. If the latter, keep stepping back then returning to reassess. Three is the maximum you are aiming for over this next stage.
Whether you hit on them in the first few days, or whether it takes till the
fourteenth day will be an indicator as to how clarity is developing. On a fresh
page, write out the question/s. Leave all the others to the side for now. Focus
on the questions you have picked.
Now
apply what you have learned and understand from Vedanta until this time. Do not
have the attitude that you 'know'. Rather, ask "what do I know - and how can it help me assess this
question?" There is possibility that as you break open the question under
the laser of Vedanta, a response will indeed reveal itself. Note down any
pertinent points which arise.